Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Teetering

Do you ever feel like you're teetering on the edge of something, unsure of whether to jump or not? The edge of greatness, edge of madness... the edge of something. That's where I feel like we are right now. Teetering. We're at the end of the school and joy school year, the end of ballet until August, the beginning of summer, the beginning of not having to do almost anything all week... I think that might be the scariest of all. Which is cuh-razy, since I love my sleep. Anyways...

I can't really say *why* exactly I'm feeling like this, it's probably just spring fever or the likes, but I still feel like it's time to take the leap.

I just need to figure out what that is.

I have a ton of things I want to do, or try to do, but the thought of starting to try them is giving me anxiety, because I'm kind of a chicken like that. For instance, I have a sewing machine, but the only thing I've made on it were tutus. Which turned out really cute, but if you think I've tried anything since them... no. Too chicken. I'd love to learn to make things, but I intimidate myself out of things so well.

So how do I get over these things? I probably just need to dive in head first and so on. But I am sooo not a good diver. Ugh. Sorry, I'm rambling all over the place.

And on another ramble.

We have been lucky lucky lucky enough to be getting a new Temple built that's two hours away. It's beautiful. Beeeautiful. They had an open house for it and my mum flew in so we got to go as a family and the kids got to see the inside of the Temple. P told me the Temple was NOT orange and blue like he thought it would be, but it is white and has lots of sparkles, and that he felt very happy when he was inside of it. Exact words: "mum, I was mad before I went in the temple, but then when I got i...nside, I wasn't mad anymore! It made me feel happy!" Be still my heart... J was most interested in the baptismal font, he said that it looked hot and that he wanted to go swimming in it. M was interested in the art, and really loved the celestial room. All in all, it was a beautiful, happy day. And of course I forgot the memory card for my camera, so this is from my mum's Blackberry.

4 comments:

kate bentley said...

♥ so much love. teetering can be scary, but oh so great if you so happen to teeter the right way I suppose. good thoughts coming your way, my dear!

Jen said...

I love that you got to take your kids to a Temple open house! What a wonderful experience! Good luck figuring out just what you're teetering on - I've been there! You'll get it, and you'll get it right!

Mary Lynn said...

Very pretty Temple! We got to take the kids through the Rexburg Open House. Such a fun experience for them!

Amber said...

I feel the same way you do Laurie I think. I am scared to start new things in case the end ends in failure. Brian is always saying just try it cause you won't succeed unless you try but it takes a a lot of guts for me to start even something simple. But the few times I have done it and like the outcomes, the feelings are priceless. Where was the temple built? That is awesome